I am a girl who’s 16 years old. I’m part Chinese, part Iban, part Scottish and part Portuguese. I live in a major city in Australia where the weather is like 4 seasons in one day. I won’t admit I suffer from anorexia or bulimia, but I am certainly not losing weight the healthy way but neither am I the unhealthy way. I eat small amounts of food and I exercise. I have been having difficulty with my weight for years, never feeling confident in how I look. It started when I was about 8, before then I didn’t really notice seeing as I was a happy-go-lucky kid. I used to do ballet intensively multiple times a week after school and as an afternoon snack my mum would feed me McDonald’s every time. That’s when I started putting on a lot of weight due to the fat content and fast food. I started walking into class smelling like Maccas and the girls started making fun of me. This happened until I was 12 and I stopped dancing because of how much I got bullied by the girls in the class. I wish I didn’t quit because I miss it so desperately but I understand how a few months of emotional damage can affect my life. I have been depressed for the last 4 years and have seen multiple psychologists. Extreme weight loss and my dieting has been a side affect of my mental state. I have issues with relationships and fears of being alone. I have moved schools twice and this school I currently attend is an alternative way of high school education as I can’t fit into the mainstream schooling system. My battle with my weight and depression is expressed in this blog.

I’d just like to point out,
I am not a pro-anorexia blog. I don’t encourage it, this is MY thinspiration blog.

My weight has always been an issue to me and I have never felt comfortable with how I look. I do eat, every single day. It may not be a lot, but I eat and I exercise and I’m inbetween doing this the unhealthy way and the healthy way. Though I may put my self through this ‘pain’, I would never encourage anyone to develop an eating disorder. It’s not a trend, it’s a horrible place to be in and it’s not even about eating. It’s about the underlying psychological factors that drive people to worry about their physical appearance. I will never admit it out loud but I do suffer from a minor eating disorder. I eat ridiculously small amounts of food but again, what I am pointing out in this post, I do not encourage anorexia or bulimia.

This is for every one to read, but thank you dear anons. Though I did not post any of those messages, this is my reply because now I have what I need to say out there.

On a positive note, be lovely! <3