This is the first time I’ve been on this account in over a month. I started eating again, gained 3kg and figured it wasn’t horrible. I have so much stress on me right now, this is the first time in months that I’ve cried myself to sleep. I don’t go to a regular system school so I have no friends I see regually, the friends I do have don’t see me in their immediate interest social circle. I’ve also been sick at home for the last month and bored. Generally I’m lonely and I can’t tell anyone because they’ll say I chose this school myself and that I’m the one who pushes people away. My parents are making me pay for everything myself because I’m working, I’m only 16 and I get under paid soon to be fired because my managers hate me. Woe is me, I seem like such a sook but I don’t want to be seen as weak.